Here is today's subject, to all my loyal fans. Today's subject is how other people insist that they know me, better than I know myself.
I'm not kidding. I have people I hardly know arguing with me about my general character traits!!
When it comes to knowing myself, I am the expert! How dare these people believe they know me better than me! What the? haha. And that is today's subject.
I told this lady, "oh, I'm really rather shy," and she sees me on stage singing, then afterwards comes over to me and says, "oh, your not shy." and she argues with me that I'm not shy.
Well, yes I am. I have to work hard to overcome it. Just because I have worked hard and you can't tell that I'm shy, does not mean that I am indeed not.
So, I think about, how all of my life, others have insisted upon describing me. They just insist on describing me in "their" terms. They tell me that I am this, they tell me that I am that.
What am I? A Barbie Doll? Pisses me off that they have such nerve.
Not that I have ever believed them or thought they knew what they were talking about.
Some people's opinions I respect. Yes. Those who I feel really do know me, well then, yes I respect them. But, I am talking about total strangers, those who have seen me but twice, or have seen me on tv. Funny how they hold opinion of me without having met me. Funny how they make up my "personality traits" in their heads. I guess it's just natural to "fill in" what you don't really know, assume, you know? It's the old stereotyping, perhaps? Perhaps I have just been "stereotyped" alot?
Well, we shall continue with the thought that jealously is the opposite of despair.
Now, it comes to my attention that most people will quote the opposite of love, as hate. But, in study, I find the opposite of love, is indifference. Because a person that is acting upon "hate" is still giving his attention to the person. They "love" to "hate" the person. And so, it is not truly the opposite of love. Understand, there Tod?
So, if the opposite of love, is indifference. Then what is the opposite of hate? Difference. That is why we have racial problems. It is "difference" that causes others to truly hate. Differences are racial differences, religious differences... those things cause true hate.
So, in our model of love, if "hate" is included within the stages, then it has to be due to "differences" in sex.
It can be said that one can be jealous of another's "sex" as well. It is that a man can be jealous of a woman because of her sex of being a woman. It is not that he is jealous that she had sex with another, it is the jealous that she is able to have sex with men!
Differnet types of jealousy, you see. And that is the reason that jealousy is the opposite of despair. Because despair would come from a man who can never be a woman. That is the despairing part. If the situation could be resolved, then there would be some hope. But, despair is to be without hope. To have totally no hope!
Yes, yes, I know they have operations now, I'm trying to explain an example. If the person feels there is no hope, then they feel despair.
There.
Nah!
What time is it? Oh, hey, gotta go. It's time for rehursal.
Gotta fly, good bye sweet people! Thank you Jackie for your inspiration to teach.
Copyright 2002 Peggy Penny
11:49 a.m. - 2002-10-14
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